Seize The Time

Friday, November 18, 2011

somebody i used to know BY gotye

this is a very meaningful song...a very good tune to it too^^

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end
Always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know...

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know I used to know
That I used to know

Somebody...

Monday, October 3, 2011

interviews....

interviews are scary. i should pen this down before i forget.

my first ever job interview....it was on the 14th of September when I received this miraculous phone call for me to come in for an interview. At first when I got the missed call I thought...must be some call operater from the bank calling about a new plan they have but when I called them back it was from SP. Again I thought wrong number....But when they transferred me through to the director it was for a job interview. A graduate position!! I couldn't be happier. I was already giving up trying to get a job before year end and here i was being offered a job and an accountant one too. So the interview was on the 19th. I had time to prepare and seriously..all the questions were asked. what makes u suitable for the job, what kind of pay would u like, what weakness would u like to change of yourself if u had the chance, what the role offered, given a difficult situation what would you do, what kind of environment do u work best in, etc. it was about 20-30minutes and it did go well cause i got the job!!! funny part was that the person hiring me frequents the New Zealand Natural that i work at. what a coincidence huh...

today (the 3rd of Oct) i went for another interview. this one was truly a blessing. its a position for a graduate business analyst and it sounds really exciting doesnt it? bit more exciting than an accounting one. i got this call not long after the first interview. it was the 21st Sept and I was at work. i was waiting for another call and i got this one. the first impression was not a good one. LOL. i couldnt hear what he said his name was and i totally forgot what this company was offering. i managed to get a toilet break and i called the guy back. he asked me what my goals were and i said to be a certified accountant (wrong answer!) the position was for a business analyst=.= then when he asked if i was enjoying this unit that i am currently taking i said not too well that i am having trouble coping =.= wrong again! this position requires me to understand especially this particular unit. sighs.....i thought this would be the end but u know what i got his name wrong!! i said nicky when it was ricky =.=

guess what tho....i got through the screening and was invited for an interview. he called me back on friday (was in class =.= and was having an exam that day) and told me to come in on 3rd oct for the first interview. i researched the company and it has been progressing fairly well. suddenly i was thinking why not? if i dont get the accountant one (that time i didnt know yet) then this would be a good alternative. and so here i am typing away after the interview. the two guys who interviewed me are fairly young and they have achieved so much. but as the interview progressed i felt that it wasn't reli right for me. my brain is dead when it comes to speed lately. i can do things fast but i can lose my train of thought in the middle of something =.=. horrible seriously. personal questions were ok but when he asked 99 squared i was like O.O i looked like an idiot. im gonna remember the answer for life 9801!!!!!! well things happen eh? and well im glad i went for it and im ready if i were told i did not succeed. but if i were told i did succeed (pengsan!)

back to studying....one more mid term to go!!!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

electric shadows

this chinese movie goes back to the days of the 1990s maybe. starts with a mute woman hitting a guy on the head with a brick while he was cycling by. the girl was taken into custody but told the guy to help her take care of her fish. weird starting and i relate this through the sypnosis as i missed the beginning of the movie.

anyway from where i started watching, it was a narration of how this young girl met and befriended this eccentric little boy who lives in the same village. these were during war times and these young children thrived on movies showed in the open on a huge screen. this girl and boy become best of friends.

but things changed when the boy had to move to his grandfather's place in another district. the girl was heartbroken and when her mum remarried she was lost and always showed anger. when a little brother came along, she felt that she was pushed aside and even tried to leave her brother in a forest. but the brother beared no ill will to her and the part was acted out by a very cute little boy indeed.

however....something bad happened soon after and while the brother was trying to be nice to her and took her to the movies when she banned from doing so.....he fell off the building and died. her stepfather was so angry that he slapped her across the face so hard that she lost her hearing ability. she left home and never came back. her parents lived in sadness and loneliness never truly recovering from their son's death.

coming back to the guy, i found out he was reading from the diary this girl who grew up to be the woman who hit him. coincidence eh? lol. and he found out she was watching over her parents from where she was living. and the reason she hit the guy was because he killed her dog when he knocked over some bricks while cycling by. that triggered a traumatic experience for her and she had to be rehabilitated. he met her and told her who he was and also brought her mum and stepdad to meet her while playing back movies that were long into her childhood days.

typing this out as i want to remember this movie. i didnt relate it as well but a movie worth watching....

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

help!

sigh....

i want to believe that everything is alright. i want to believe that i am not stressed out. i want to believe that i won't worry anymore about every little detail. i want to believe that i won't be depressed come exams. i want to believe that i remember every detail of my life. i want to believe in alot of things but....

what's the difference between believing in something and actually knowing something is going to happen?

the difference that truly bothers me is that you don't worry that that something is going to happen when you know it is going to. but when you believe in something you usually hope either the opposite happens or the opposite doesnt happen. i know...its screwed up what i am saying here. well that is cause i am feeling so emo now.

i feel emo many times in a year huh??

sigh.... sad part is i can't turn to anybody and tell them what i feel. cause putting things into words always gets me into trouble. either the person does not understand or puts my view on things down their way and well it becomes their story doesnt it, no longer mine. that's when i shut up and well just listen. what people should realise is that if a person is talking about a problem he/she has, that person wants you to listen and let him/her let it out. if you turn it the other way round and make them listen, well yeah they listen but do they?

think about it.... has listening intently ever hurt u? instead don't you sometimes see things more clearly and actually see their views on things? well me....i've been on the listening side for too long. makes me quieter as time goes by. but has anybody stopped to actually ACTUALLY listen to what i say?

maybe there is... just a thought...

Friday, July 29, 2011

missing home

today during the speaking test of my IELTS, i was asked bout my house back home. a weird question and i was a bit shell-shocked but i recovered and started picturing what my house looked like. i could see the front porch without any cars cause usually my parents will be out or we would be just coming back from shopping and the porch would only have prince at the front gate waiting for us to let him in the house.

the interior and exterior are simple. my parents are simple people and from them i learnt that simple is the best. why would you want a house full of stuff that you have no use for but just for it to look 'rich', full cause then it would amaze others at how well you must be doing. but no my parents are people who prefer neatness than clutter, space than crowdedness. so when you walk in the house from the hot day outside, you would be greeted by a waft of cool air in the house. and all you want to do for the rest of the day is rest in it for the rest of the day.

but guess what? i just thought of all these things to say. i couldn't relate how my house looks picturesque to me eventhough others may think it a little too simple. i felt as if i didn't do it justice. and i couldn't relate to the tester how i miss home so much. that that's the place i want to be at this very moment. not thinking bout doing the test early in the morning tomorrow. but in order for me to be home with the feeling of having done my best for the year i have to get through it no matter what. cause that's what will help me through the rest of the year.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

luck....

do u believe in lady luck? just luck? well everyone wants to right? that is why before someone goes for an exam you wish them luck. or when he/she is about to perform on a stage full of people, you wish them luck. cause i believe it is good to believe in luck. to me...it is like a blanket of security or at least a buffer to disappointment. doing your best and having luck would be the best combination to anything.

lately, i've taken to buying 'lotto'. it just started recently when $30million was up for grabs. i didn't win but i learnt that people want to believe that they will be lucky at least one of the times they buy a lottery ticket or gamble in a casino, cause surely lady luck will come upon them at least once. this is where the addiction starts though. you keep believing that you will strike one day and maybe you will but until you win first prize it wouldn't be enough.

the reason why i am suddenly into buying lottery is that i want to feel lucky. i want to feel that everything will go as plan. so far i have been quite fortunate and grateful for what i have. for the people i have around me. luck comes in different forms and for me its in the people i love, my family, my friends and of course my other half. these are all God's blessings and i am thankful that He is always there for me as well.

i will be taking an important test this weekend and i am hoping luck is on my side. i'm not sure if what i have studied and done so far is enough to get me through but what i know is that i have the support of all those around me, and to me, that is sufficient.

think about it....who/what is luck to you?

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Greetings from Perth!

i've finally moved into Tehani's place near the city!! wohoo!!

well it's been a while since i wrote a blog and ALOT has happened since then. and the moving excitement has died down a bit. especially with having to study for exams and assignments looming on every corner. and another reason i haven't been blogging is because i am much more comfortable in where i am than i was before. things are turning around for me in the uni life sense of the word. i liked where i was before but living with friends gives a whole new feel towards what fun is. i'm feeling more independent with the cooking that i have to do. yes....i'm cooking and am enjoying trying new recipes. own laundry, ironing and not having to feel bad when someone does it for u even if u didn't ask them too cause now i'm on my own. i do things at my pace and that's what makes it enjoyable. real freedom!

i have been reading a few books most of which i enjoyed especially the book by greg larsson. i've only read the first out of the trilogy. it was quite an interesting read and will read the rest during my winter break which will be long enough to finish the other two^^.

for now......another mid term paper to finish off and two more assignments to get done during the easter break. can't wait! another reason to be excited bout the break is that liang liang is coming to Perth!! i miss him soooo much and seeing him will make me less homesick. it'll be an awesome break even if i do nothing but watch tv and hang out with him =D. cause well that's just what i want to do and of course a 'side dish' of assignments -.-....

who said uni work could stop for fun? LOL